Yesterday was my birthday, exactly a month to my wedding, and three weeks until graduation. How much can one person take right? I'm holding it together so far, but I have to admit that things are getting crazy, and show no signs of slowing down until Anna and I leave the reception.
I thrive on stress. I love having a thousand things going on, because if I have too much free time I feel useless and lazy. (It's when the Netflix binge-watching takes over) I have a free hour here and there as the school load lightens up, so I've been casually watching episodes of Burn Notice. Of course, I never have time to finish an entire episode, but it's nice to have a quick half hour to shut off. The feeling that I must be productive in all my waking hours is a great feeling, because at the end of the day, I've accomplished something. Having a packed schedule gives me a dopamine boost; of any feeling I've ever had, I hate the feeling that I've wasted my time more than any other feeling ever.
If someone asked me, "What are you like when you're stressed?" I don't know what I'd say to that, because I'm either always so stressed that it's normal, or I love being overwhelmed. My definition of stress would be the feeling I have when I sit around and feel a constant rush of guilt. That's the feeling I hate the most.
Also, a lot of big life changes are happening, but they are really great exciting ones too, so that's another reason I'm not stressed about it. Fun stuff ahead, as well as some big changes for Will Malone Photography. I have a To-do list/step by step plan for where I want to head with photography. All I need to do is graduate, and I can get moving in that direction.
A lot of rambling here, but I needed to fill my blog with something. I'll be better about updating again soon, just need to finish some projects.