I had another close call today.
I was driving home, driving around a sharp turn, when a pickup truck flew around the turn head on in my lane, coming right at me at about 60 mph. I quickly turned sharply left to avoid him, and he passed me, almost in slow motion with about an inch between our vehicles. He then almost went head on into the person behind me, avoided them and kept driving. I don't know if the driver was drunk or what, but for the second time I saw myself come close to dying in my own car.
This sounds dramatic, I know. But not 3 years ago did I fall asleep at the wheel, on the Interstate with cruise control on, only to wake up as I was heading directly toward a highway sign and then a guardrail. My car was destroyed, but I wasn't.
I've never really been able to shake the first incident; it was almost a defining moment for me in that it also happened to be the day that my wife and I started dating. I had texted her "I totaled my car so I'll be a little late." (I don't know what she was thinking when she continued to date me after a text like that from a guy she didn't really know super well.) Even now, if I'm a passenger in a car where the driver breaks too hard I'll start breathing a little heavy. Today, with that close call, it went so far as me having to pull over to avoid a panic attack.
I may be looking at this too hard and too mythically, but it was the second time I've seriously come within an inch of my life or serious injury. After two wake up calls like that, how could I waste another moment?
I get distracted a lot. When I know I need to do something, I do everything but that thing. If I need to start a photo project, I'll write an entire book or screenplay, start a podcast, write movie reviews. Anything but the thing I NEED to actually be doing. I then fool myself into believing I've been productive and never get THE thing done. I guess I'm just rebellious like that.
I guess I just needed a second reminder that I'm mortal to get back to work. Just because I'm young doesn't necessarily mean I have a wealth of time. I better quit wasting it.