I've had a complicated relationship with photography.
When I first discovered photography, I loved it. I wouldn't go anywhere without my camera, I took hundreds and hundreds of photos per week. I lived in Hawaii, so there was no end to beautiful stuff to take photos of. I started taking a photo a day for no other reason than I loved photography.
I started a second "photo-a-day" project, I made it to day 200 and stopped because of unrelated family issues. I had zero drive to take photos, so I quit for almost a year.
I never took any art classes until college, so being an artist wasn't on my brain, it was taking photos that people would want to buy. I loved photographers like Peter Lik; he had figured out a way to make "hotel-style" photography incredibly buyable. I went to one of his galleries in Waikiki and was even sucked into to his whole brand. His photos weren't necessarily anything you haven't seen on Flickr, but his presentation made you feel like you had to have them.
When I started taking more art classes, I opened up my mind to this idea that I could give my photos meaning. I didn't have to focus on people buying them as much; I could develop my own style and make photos I wanted to make for me. I believe this made me more well-rounded.
I got really high on the idea of more stylistic photography, to the point where I lost total interest in being a "Peter Lik" style photographer. I gave up my desire to be a freelance photographer, and wanted to only shoot for myself.
Guess what? Doing photography 100% for you doesn't make any money. You have to have marketer elements and business chops to sell a single photo. Now, I work in a place where I see the photography business from all sides. I know what it takes to frame, mat, and print a picture making it ready for sale. I also see what people buy. I can now look at a photo and know if people would buy it or not, and that's where my mind changed back to normal.
I still want to make "art". I still shoot double exposures and portraits and everything. Now, I'm getting a high of the idea of selling, and I'm back a working toward taking photos that sell. The more you sell, the more chances you'll have to make work you love. I'm back in a mindset that feels more comfortable to my personality, I feel like I'm getting back to my roots a bit.
I'm really excited to share some of my new stuff with you guys, but it'll still be a little bit. I've just been living in photoshop getting my new store ready. I'm really excited for what's to come!