I've been really frustrated this year, and I'm still a little frustrated (but more in a good way). I've really valued time more than money because time is actually finite, but I've become obsessed with it in a Scrooge McDuck-esque fashion. I don't have a huge vault of gold coins to bath in, but I'm 26 and healthy, so unless I get hit by a bus tomorrow, as far as everyone knows I'm basically a Scrooge McDuck of time.
That said, I woke up realizing that today is the sixth Day 200 that I've made it to in my history of 365 projects. (That includes my last one where I made a video every day for a year). It made me a little mad because I realized that I'm really just doing the same thing over and over and after six times, that should be proof enough for me to realize that it's not really a challenge anymore.
I wrote the following as my Day 365 for this year, but at this point, why wait? Screw it. Here ya go:
I’m ending my 365 project series for real this time. I’ve said it before, but back then I was pretty depressed thinking there was nowhere else to go with it. Now, I’m a changed person. After shooting 365 photos, or a photo a day a year, I have about 1 billion places I can go from here. One is fairly obvious: I could always go to Day 366. Why haven’t I gone past 365?
Throughout my life, I’ve had to break down a series of invisible barriers that I set up for myself. I keep having to re-learn the same lesson: “What’s stopping me from doing ____? Well, I guess nothing!” This year, I’ve drop kicked, sucker punched, and straight-up devoured multiple barriers in front of me, because this year, I woke up. I suddenly quit caring about a bunch of dumb stuff I cared about before, and I continually asked myself “Why can’t you do that?”
Day 365 is really just meaningless to me at this point because, again, unless I get hit by a bus in the next 165 days, I'm most likely gonna make it there because I've done it time and time again.
Here's the thing: I have stuff to show you, but I'm not ready yet. I've been in the lab coming up with new ideas for where I'm headed from here, but I've also been really busy with my photography business (which is crazy!). It has to do with my podcast, video series, and some other stuff. BUT I CAN'T TELL YOU YET. It's driving me crazy, but I'm trying to make some quality stuff instead of rushing it out.
At this point, the Day ____ model is gonna just be for documentation, keeping track of one long narrative to record progress. It's the bare minimum. No matter what, I should be doing this anyway, it no longer needs to be the cornerstone of the stuff I do. Hence dropping the /365 after each number, because the sky is the limit now.
I'm also starting a business, and I want to document that, which will be a good thing for the "photo of the day" to revolve around.
I'm also going to be doing more small projects to push me and just do them because I want to do them. My 24 hour photo project is gonna happen in October, which is gonna be weird and crazy. I've also mentioned that my wife and I are road tripping across America, so many projects will come from that as well.
I'm beyond excited, but a little annoyed I can't just sit in my cave and crank them out all at once ;)
A million dollars isn't cool. You know what's cool? A billion dollars. -Justin Timberlake (as Sean Parker in one of my favorite movies, The Social Network)
Except for me: 365 Days isn't cool. You know what's cool? 3,650 Days.
So yeah. Who cares about 365 Days? Let's see what happens after that.